For the dog love of my life. 

Yami - Yams- Yamers - Gordo - Papa Chulo 

You brought so much happiness and joy to my life. Always by my side whether it be the kitchen, couch, or toilet. I never quite imagined life without you even though I knew your life would inevitably be too short. In recent years you lost one eye and then started losing your hearing and eventually your eyesight was completely gone. We had to make adjustments to help you get around the house without bumping into things which unfortunately was inevitable. None of that mattered as long as you were comfortable. Almost out of nowhere there was a change in your behavior and I just referred to it as anxiety at least that’s what it looked like to us. From one day to another it was worse and suddenly you couldn’t find your way around the house quite like before and bumping into things or getting stuck in spaces you fit your little body into was started becoming a daily occurrence some days multiple times a day. It was unfortunate to find out you had dementia ÃÃ��ÅÃ��††I then started waking up twice a night to help you go potty as you needed which sucked I’ll admit but I’d do all over again for you. Ran all the tests did all the medicine combinations we could try and sadly the effectiveness was very short lived. I knew what was coming and I didn’t want to face it but I didn’t want to rob you of having dignity in your last days. I never wanted to be that dog owner that held on for selfish reasons. You gave me 14 years and 2 months of pure love and I was always going to want more; dog lives are cut way too damn short. Basically spent half my life with this little dude he was always there for me every step of the way. The way my heart aches I can’t explain it. I’ve cried for you every day for a while now because I knew what was to come. I couldn’t leave the house for more than a few hours and thankfully daddy works from home so he was always there to make sure you weren’t stuck anywhere. We set up a section for you so you wouldn’t have to roam the house and bump into things or get stuck. Got you the doggy halo which helped to an extent and finally your little helmet that seemed to help a bit more. Having worked with animals all these years I never wanted to be the dog owner that held on for selfish reasons when you needed to rest. I can’t imagine what you felt being blind & deaf with dementia but I tried my best to keep you comfortable even if that meant waking up twice a night to help you go potty or to give you additional medicine that at the highest dose prescribed multiple times a day was no longer being effective. I am sorry as hell that I won’t have my little shadow around and I as I write this am a little angry dogs don’t get to live longer. I love you papá chulo I always will you’ve leave paw prints in my souls as much as I hurt I’m thankful you’re are peace now. I love you forever baby boy. 

 

To the best dog son I’ve ever had. 

 

Yami, my buds, my papa chulo. We did not get a full life together but having you in my life for the last 4 years has been one of the biggest treats in my life. Yami, I want to say thank you, thank you for being the life, soul, and shadow in your moms life since day one. I remember when I first met you, I got out of my car at your grandma and grandpas house and you were with your mom. I bent over and went into a kneeling position to offer my hand to pet you and you went right behind your mom. In that moment, I didn’t believe you were afraid of me, I saw a dog who loved her mother soo soo soo much that you never wanted to leave her side. Then one day some guy shows up and I believe you saw that your mom and I were meant to be but you were not ready to share her with me. However, some time had passed and I asked you and your mom to come live with me. Since that day, you have made this house your home and I got to see you everyday. I always knew you were going to be moms shadow but I do want to say thank you so much for putting your trust in me to take care of you and your mom. It became clear to me after sometime that you were okay sharing the love of your life with me. Through your mom, you and I grew such a special bond. You touched my life and you left your big paws engraved into my heart. My only wish was I wish I could have been there with you when you were a puppy and seen you in your prime. However, I believe god always has a plan and instead I got you at the end of your life. As life kept taking things away from you, I believe it brought us closer together. I felt your love and I hope you felt mine. I believe you threw your trust into me and knew I’d do anything for you. I believe this because, you went from being a dog who went to hide from me to a dog needing me. I’ll never forget all the times I walk in the house after each session just to make sure that your doing okay. In the end your mom and I didn’t want you to suffer anymore. We got the best dog anyone could ever ask for so the least we could do is take away your fear and anxiety. As much as it pains us and we miss you so so much, I know right now you have both of your eyes back, you can hear the pigeons, smell all the yummy food and will be waiting in our new house in heaven to welcome us home. In gods time we will be back together and I can’t wait to see you in your prime, since I felt I was robbed of that part of your life. Thank you for your unconditional love, and I promise I will take care of the love of your life, because she is the love of my life. I pray to see you in my dreams and before you know it we will be with you again with more chicken tenders. I love you buds, you’re so missed and will forever be in my heart. I know you will be watching over us and you will still somehow find a way to lay by moms feet. Rest in peace my son. Love always and forever, your Dad.